destruction is imminent

hope is a strange thing sometimes.
you can start acquiring hope in a certain thing.
about certain things. certain people.

the strangest thing is that it can grow and build almost completely unnoticed.
maybe you have a certain inkling that it’s there if you actually stop to think about it.
but even if you do, it doesn’t always seem that important.
that big.

until something kills it.

it isn’t until the hope dies that you really notice it.
that’s when you know it was there for certain.
when you realize just how much there was.
how big it had grown.
as you feel it dying in your heart.
thrashing in its death throes.

i apologize for this rather melodramatic post.
this isn’t usually my style.
but i’m not happy right now.
the death of a hope will do that to you.